Ephesians 6.12-3, ESV
“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.”
I’ve realized this past week how utterly helpless I feel regarding certain situations, but this pinnacled last night when the power of prayer finally clicked for me. I realized how much I love to pray, how much it helps me, and also, so importantly, that I believe through and through that it is my birthright to pray. Even though my testimony reveals that I wasn’t baptized as a child or raised in a church, my mom always prayed two prayers with me every night, and encouraged me to continue those prayers when I became an adolescent, and then moved away to university.
I heard a sermon from Bishop Barron a couple of weeks ago called “The Spiritual Life is a Battle”, where he described the different offices within the church, and the extraordinary roles of the prayerful. I was ready to receive this message, because I have been more open to this idea of spiritual warfare. For a long time I was healing from mental health issues that prevented me from ingesting any sort of conflict or confrontation. I couldn’t handle the idea of a spiritual battle being waged, and I couldn’t stand strong in my convictions that Christ is Lord over me.
But when I reached my 9 year sober anniversary last month, and I felt so disconnected from life and from the fellowship, I got to see fully that pretending to be neutral doesn’t advance my happiness or well-being. If anything, it begets complacency and loneliness.
Now that I have certain views that would only hurt me to engage in, I turn to prayer. As I review 9 years of continuous sobriety, mostly established on prayer and the experience of God showing up time and again, I feel confident that I can truly help others through empathy and prayerful intercession.